When all the things around you seems to be falling out of place and dilapidating so fast that it does not make a single sense at all, you know you are falling to a dark abyss.
Falling unconscious and helplessly we struggle to move and comprehend what is going on but in the end we just surrender to the thought that we are indeed gonna hit rock bottom. We try to swim hard as if we are drowning and something is suffocating us, crushing our lungs until every breath is so hard to take in. We try to fight it, just to reach the surface and breathe fresh air again. The air of being fine and okay, the air of euphoria.
But every persistent try ends with a cry, it's not easy to just bounce yourself back again, no matter how easy it sounds coz where you are? Is in a deep ocean. Fighting for your life, swimming like crazy just to survive but your whole torso is shackled with big ball of chains. Escape is not possible. Trying is an option but dying is inevitable.
In a split second, you wonder if there is reason for all these. Should i fathom something from this dark unknown abyss? Still struggling, you give off your last adrenalin...fight or flight? You want to fight but your mind already chose to surrender. Surrender and just let you hit the ground with a big loud thud.
Surprisingly, after hitting the bottom, it felt incredulously fine and serene than what you have been expecting. You even felt more relax now than before trying to break off to the surface. Then something came into you, you felt enlightened. You closed your eyes and gave a sweet smile and said: "I just need to just let things be, I don't have fight it....just fall. Even if I know its gonna be disastrous coz sometimes we just need to feel all these...we need to reach the bottom in order to bounce back. The more you resist falling, the more its gonna hurt".
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