Can I hold your hand? Can I hug you tight for a minute or two? I don’t need your stories and your cute little smiles; I just need to feel warmth again. I just need to know how it feels to have someone who cares again.
I’ve been looking of ways on how to replace it…how to substitute a human’s touch but all I can do is take a warm shower and pretend someone is hugging me tightly…I want it to last but my skin will get burned and pruned if I stay too long…a feeling of warmth for 5 minutes, haha…taking a shower, my freaking desperate way of sorting out my longing and sadness.
Crying in the night, feeling helpless and lonely. A feeling of relentless incompleteness, how can I stop these?? All I can do is hug my pillow tight, close my eyes and turn the volume of my ipod up just to calm my mourning soul.
I’m a fucked up and miserable soul, so don’t be surprised to find me odd. I’m not talkative, not friendly and not even fun to be with! I’m broken and I give up trying to fix me.
Thank you for listening and still staying. I know you think this is weird but your presence is enough to make me smile. Haha. And nowadays? All I care about is being okay…and I must say, you make my unstable complicated life a lot better. Stranger, very friendly stranger…just stay around coz I like you to be my friend and maybe by then I won’t have to call you stranger anymore.
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