...forever...

I realized that no matter how far a person is, no matter how bad you don’t wanna think about them and distract yourself with other activities, you cannot really stop yourself from ever feeling compassionate for them because when you care and love a person, it rests and lives eternally in your heart and your soul will ceaselessly depend and long for their existence.

Every deafening laugh of pure joy and innocence, the jokes that mock your patience and the memories that were so deeply carved in your head makes you smile now right? But when silence subsides and loneliness break into the air, our minds, making an assumption that it can cheer us up automatically switch to those sweet and happy recollections but the truth is we evidently end up searing with the pain of longing and regretting the times we’re not beside them…the crucial point of being all sunken and drunken by the good all memories. You wanted badly to close this switch as much as possible but the portal to the past and the present are widely been opened now and you can’t even undo it. Alas! The fatal circumstances of missing someone continues…

Do you know that everytime someone say: I miss you, it doesn’t really just mean they miss you for this day only but rather they miss your presence yesterday, the days before it, weeks behind it and months prior to that also?! It means that everyday your lost presence is one of the reasons why they get up and find the courage to smile each day for they know that they’re a day closer of meeting you again someday!

“I don’t know why you are important to me,
Why I even miss you for the strangest reasons
Or
How you manage to make me smile by just slipping a thought of you...
All I know is that it’s a sign!
A notice that you will forever reside here, in my heart and forever be a part of who I am before, now and in the future.”

The word “forever” is so vague that sometimes it’s almost unrealistic. For me? It never really is believable but I trust in the power of just holding on and treasuring every single moment! Friends forever? Friends stuck in my heart until its last viable beat ends!