Time is moving so freaking slow! So slow that every emotional wound we had and have is lingering so bad that it hurts! The feelings that are so trapped and harmless before are now excruciatingly painful because of the mundane silence that’s penetrating us from within! A feeling that is so oddly cold that no matter how we try to conceal and fight it, we will only end up defeated! Cold drops of water from the eyes are even inevitable for the feeling is so intense that when you don’t let them out you might just explode! Aargh! I hate this dumb situation! Waiting for days to pass fast but time is moving so mockingly sluggish! I hate it because every hurt that I thought I’ve already dealt with and over with are now surprisingly haunting me!
Ever wished you have a remote control of your life just like the movie “Click”?! Well, I have! And now maybe is the most perfect timing! My life is in constant slow motion and it is quite stationary for I’m waiting for my flight to
Before I have always wanted to disappear…like a bubble, like the wind…and now? I feel like each day I’m starting to loose grab of myself! I am alive yet my soul is mysteriously decomposing and perishing! Feels like I’m loosing my purpose in life that I had before! My existence here is rotten and I am stinking so bad that I feel like a trash nobody would want to be with. The things that I used to do and enjoyed to do before are now becoming so uninteresting! I feel so empty, so frustrated. My priorities, my being…I’m questioning it all. Darn. I’m a disintegrating, nostalgic, insomniac and emotionally unstable man with a stagnant mind and drained soul, how cool can I get?!
I wish that I could just sleep tonight and just wake up when it is August one…I looked at the calendar and already marked the date for I know that when that day comes, my whole world will move and start spinning normally again, I will have my life back, hopefully!
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