...Maybe...

You have already closed the door, right from the moment I'm starting to fall.

You gave up hope for it to ever happen again.

I did too but I had a feeling we have something.

Call me crazy but I think you like me too.

But you never said the words I was waiting to hear...

I realized it's too soon to say for I have known you for only awhile.

But even so, why do I miss you this much?

Why do I feel sad that you suddenly left?

Why can't I sleep?

Why do I anticipate talking to you again?

Maybe the two of us are similar...

Maybe it fascinated me that we can easily jive.

Maybe I just adore you.

Or maybe...

You only reminded me of someone I deeply loved before T-T

...Shut Down Na...

Hindi nagtatagpo, mga pusong nagtatalo.

Dalawang landas na sadyang kay layo.

Hindi dapat pilitin ang damdaming magmahal,

Ipagkamali ang gusto sa mahal.

O pwersahin ang pagkakataon na mag baka sakali.

 

Kapag ang pagtingin ay nalamatan na,

Humupa man ang inis,

Saloobin ay sadyang kay hirap ng baguhin.

 

Hayaan mong sabihin ko ang dahilan,

Puso ko’y sarado pa para magmahal.

Mga alinlangan ko ay may rason.

Alaala ng kahapong di ko na dapat sabihin pa.

 

Ako’y magmamahal nguni’t sadyang di pa ngayon.

At kung nais mong tanungin kung kaya kitang mahalin

Marahil ang sagot ko’y hanggang kaibigan lamang.

Dahil ramdam kong ang ating mga landas at nararamdaman?

Ay hindi kelan man magtatagpo sa ganung lebel.

 

Sabihin mo ng ako’y duwag

O di naman kaya’y sambitin ang lahat ng matatamis na salita o paliwanag.

Pero anung magagawa?

Ang puso ko’y hindi naman timitibok ng gaya ng sayo.

 

...Irony...

Do not trust me just yet, for I am not to be trusted. You are kind and lovable, I’m too ambiguous to begin with and being around you will just complicate things out. I know you wonder why I don’t let my guards down but believe me that one has a pretty good reason why. 

I don’t trust myself to not fall in love with you, I don’t even know if I can control my feelings to not go on over board! I live my life with such an excess of emotions and just a little move can flicker something that shouldn’t.

Don’t get me wrong, I like you to be my friend, it is just that I don’t want a certain something in my past to happen again. Funny, right? Back before I’m wishing for a friend to come and suppress my loneliness and now that someone like you came, I am limiting myself to be with you. Ah, irony. Sucks. 

I know this is a bit confusing, but thing is, I am a very confusing person too, haha…I am complicated. I am trying to figure something about myself and quite frankly I am just in the midst of trying to search for it. When all these clouds clear up, I’ll give you a call and we’ll hang out but right now, I should be alone.