...dilemma...

its hard to think of the future...what will happen to me and what should i choose...

it's pretty difficult to choose something new that needs a start to zero basis and has a lot of uncertainty...

a past were you built yourself, friends and status. where i am happy but still i know there are lot of opportunities where i can grow...i feel secured in the past and i have no worries because what i do is just follow the stream of the water of it and i know i'll be okay...

ive embraced and prepared my mind to study in canada a long time before but now i'm having second thoughts. wah! maybe because i passed our qualifying exam and i am one who got the highest scores. i feel that all of a sudden i have a pretty good chance to finish nursing if i study here rather than there. it's complicated but after the results came up, i was really happy, startled about my progress...studying abroad will lead me to more students that are more intelligent than those who topped our quali exams..and me, how can i compete if i still dont know who they are and what are they capable of?

hah... i dont kno what to choose... come what may...